Jarrad,, Trust me, time heals all wounds!! I went through a situation kind of like yours a few years back.. A chance of a lifetime and it didn’t go my way.. I went through a few phases in the immediate moments after the unfolding event.
1. Denial- That didn’t really just happen to me..?
2. Hope- Hoping for some reason he would come right back!
3. Depression- I will never have an opportunity like that again!!
4. Questions- Why do I do this to myself?
5. Thoughts- Would anyone miss me if I did a swan dive off of my stand????
All of this in about 15 seconds. But like I said, time heals all wounds and I realize that situations like this will probly happen again and all a guy can do is try to best prepare yourself for the “next time”.