I was honored and humbled to know Kaden. I did truely try to be a better person because of him. I has even more humbled as Logan asked me to be a pall bearer for his son. What an absolute honor it is to help send Kaden to his eternal resting place beside god. I still well up when I think about my little buddy, but there are tears of sorrow along with tears of joy, as I remember the young boy that touched soo many lives. Life is starting to settle in for Logan and Jamie, here is her most resent update…..
After being up for nearly 20 hours straight yesterday, Logan and I finally called it a night. We both slept straight through until 7:51 this morning, believe it or not! And no drugs involved 
I woke up from a peaceful sleep but reality soon set in and the sense of loss prevailed. It just doesn’ feel real. I knew that when Logan took Tj out this morning that it was going to be difficult for him considering the event that occurred the last time he took Tj out. As I suspected, he came back in with a flood of emotions. We laid in bed and just cried. We know this will change but right now we don’t feel Kaden’s presence. We know it’s probably to early for that but we want it so bad. Fortunately we both fell back asleep until we heard Carley in the living room chanting a Happy Birthday song of her own to Tj. Tj is one year old today…bittersweet isn’t it? Carley told me later that she and Rylee made Tj a birthday cake out of bread, peanut butter, and treats. He loved it!
I was finally forced to get out of bed around 11 because our good friends, The Browns, stopped in and made us a “Hunter’s breakfast” as Bob calls it. I heard that and was thinking venison all the way but much to my pleasure, it had nothing to do with venison or wild game! Bob’s “Hunter’s breakfast” is what we call Logan’s “Special Eggs” It was very good. They stayed and watched the game with us. I heard Logan and Bob laughing and commenting about the game downstairs…Logan needed that. Teresa and I, on the other hand, talked alot about Kaden and we shed quite a few tears. Thank you Bob, Teresa, and Nick for putting a little spark in our morning!
Now we have to head out and do some shopping because the girls need clothes for Wednesday and Thursday and I need a new phone because mine won’t charge or turn on. It’s a sign…I can get an iPhone now and not feel guilty about it! “Kaden, did you make my phone die so I could get a new one?” Kaden liked to use my phone to text his Dad…but he really liked the technology of the iPhone!
There are a few things that we still need to line up for the visitation and funeral; flowers and food. Hopefully that can be taken care of tomorrow! Teresa offered to help me get some posterboards together to display some larger pictures of Kaden. Any other crafty people out there that would like to help? I realize the timing is not good but I am NOT creative when it comes to this kind of stuff…and not being able to see the entire posterboard at once does not bode well for symmetry and appeal! Kaden’s favorite colors are blue and black. Teresa and I were thinking of 4-5 posterboards. I mainly have 8×10 pictures of Kaden from 3 months to age 4. Plus Disney pictures. It won’t take long but I want it to look really nice and I simply do not have that talent! Again, just email me. Don’t call…I don’t have a phone right now!
Thank you to everyone for writing such supportive posts. I am honestly having a hard time keeping up with all of them but I have read every single one!
