Here’s a little update….
Hang in there Mom, we’re thinking and praying for you.
Wow, it has a busy and exhausting few days but we’re ready to start the second treatment. Kaden will once again have 5 days of treatment consisting of Ifosamide and Etopacide. After this round we will have to wait until July 5 for the ever so important CT scan and MRI to check the size of the tumors. We MUST pray very very hard that the tumors have responded! On July 6 we will meet with the doctors to discuss the results and the next steps. It is going to be a long 3 weeks of waiting…
Last night we had a wonderful evening with our friends Bob, Teresa, Mike and Mary Jo. Teresa and Mary Jo cooked dinner for us. It was amazing! Shish-kabobs on the grill, au gratin potatos, green bean casserole (Rylee’s request), cornbread, apple Snicker salad, and a chocolate pie. All of which were homemade!! My friends sure know how to cook!! Mike brought the entertainment….firecrackers that Kaden really enjoyed shooting off of the deck. The big boys got a pretty big kick out of it too!
After our friends left last night I was holding Kaden and I got very sad. He saw that I was crying and he asked, “Momma why are you crying…are you sad because of my cancer?” He didn’t say it like a 4-year old. I told him that we have to beat this and he said, “we will because I want to be a Dad and a Grandpa.” He put his forehead on mine and he gave me a kiss. He was truly consoling me…I was a bit taken aback because I was a blubbering mess and he was talking so mature and calm. It made me wonder if God was present. I try not to believe that I am feeling something just because I want it so badly…I had 8 months of feeling good about his cancer not coming back the first time that I second guess myself now. So needless to say I’m feeling a little beat up today because we are dealing with other life circumstances on top of wondering if Kaden’s cancer is responding. Nothing else really matters as much as Kaden’s life right now and so I am frustrated and anxious over all this but once again our friends are there for us, supporting us every way they can.
I think I need to read “50 Shades of Grey” tonight…sigh..
