I apologies in advance is this offends anyone or is a little to graphic.
I headed out this morning to sit on stand for a couple hours before having to be home to take care of the kiddies while the wife is at work. I get all the way out to the stand and had to turn around to come home.
A little background on this. I have been dealing with some health issues for over a year now. Sept 08 I was diagnosed with ulcertive colitis/chrons. The has been no evidence of the disease in the small intestine, but the doc said if I was a betting man I would put my money on chrons. I said, “I don’t gamble so we will stick with what is proven!” The month of Sept and half of oct sucked I had what they call a “Flare”. For me this consisted of running to the toilet 20 plus times a day and losing a lot of blood. Things started to look up I made it out a couple times to bow hunt and did mange to down a doe. I was fortunate enough to make it through the second season of firearms before things started to head south. A week before Christmas I ended up in the emergency room with excruciating pain. I had a 4″ fistula that did not break through the skin yet. I would image this is the closest a man could come to feeling the pains of child birth!! If you don’t know what a fistula is I hope you never have to experience it. They did a surgery to remove it. Things were going good, thought the meds and everything were working from Dec until the end on March. I started to have pain, loss of blood, and increased frequency again. The docs ran some tests and found 3 more fistulas. They explain to me my options. I wanted to take a less aggressive approach at first. To say I have a white coat syndrome would be putting it mildly. I have/had extreme anxiety when going to the doc or hospital. Weekly trips to Mayo and doctors I have begun to trust have helped cure that. Over the next weekend I was basically stuck on the couch because moving was not much of an option. I have 3 boys the middle one asked me to come play and I was not up to it. He went to tell the other and he said something like he can’t play with us cause his butt hurts, he has not played with us in forever!! Which was pretty accurate. So that made me decide to have the surgery. I was disconnected in April which is suppose to be temporarily. The initial hope was to be reconnected in Dec. In July I got a staff infection. All the meds I was on killed everything except the staff. Apparently everyone has a type of staff it typically does not effect us. So that shot the Dec date to he dbl hockey sticks Now hope is for Feb-Mar. I have been having trouble getting the meds dialed in and finding ones that work. I am hoping the current med is working. So far I am not absolutely positive it is!!
Back to this morning I have a bag that collects my waste. It is what it is. My two younger boys call it my toilet They docs did not mention until after I was disconnected I would still have discharge out the rectum. This is referred to as bowel sweet. Everyone has it. It basically lubes the chute to help things move along. When I got out to my stand this morning I could feel something making progress! I do not have a lot of control or time when it comes to this! I start to climb back down to handle it. Unfortunately I did not make it Hence head on in and forget about hunting this morning.
I wondered if any of the members have to deal with this disease and have any suggestions for me. I really don’t want to admit it but I might either have to give up hunting or start wearing a depends. Quitting hunting is not an option so the depends will probably be my answer!! At least I would be able to stay on stand a lot longer!! Do you think scent-blocker or scentlok would give me a some free gear for field trials!!! It would be the ultimate scent control test!!
I try to keep a sense of humor about it, I have to or I would flip!! But it is wearing on me!! I know I have it better than 90% of the people at Mayo and I feel so guilty about being frustrated with this when I see a child and parents at Mayo. What do I have to complain about!!
I understand if you would not want to post on here so if you have any suggestions send me a pm. I hope this was not out of line! I already feel better than when I started this post!!