AM,
I have been reading these posts for quite awhile and until now had no intention of responding. However, it is obvious to me that some of the respondents have gone through similar struggles and offer help, but have not opened up to the extent you have.
Anyway, I am the guy that you called an idiot regarding Bass Boats in an earlier E Mail, and every now and then I have provided equally irrational comments especially concerning Slop Bass and gasoline, James Hoist, and Lord knows what else. A few of you have basically said in private E mails how can you be so nice in some of your responces and just an A-Hole in others. The bottom line is on occasion I tend to drink a bit too much and become a bit irrational, and then every opinion I have gets magnified about 1000% in my responses.
Aside from hoping this represents an apology to other folks on this board, I understand what you are going through, and would be willing to elaborate our similar struggles, but unlike you not on an open board.
As I progress in my recovery, please remember a few things. One, my constant goal has always been never give up; period. Secondly, approach every concern or difficulty with an open mind, a kindness and a sense of humor. It works and getting pissed only alienates everyone we deal with. Finally, Bill C makes a lot of sense in his responses on this board, especially regarding the twelve steps.
Anyway, I am fighting a bit of a battle on this end, but if you wish to get together send me a personal E Mail. I have a nice fishing boat stored in Winona, Mn.
Finally, if sounds like a few of the folks on this board know you personally and you have been fishing with them. Ironically, I refuse to take anyone fishing in my boat aside from a few kids and the family. I am afraid of failing, which essentially means a bad day for me. I finally took my neighbor out last Saturday in the Whitman Pool and we did OK. Jim and his wife were camping at Merrick. A few decent Walleye, ditto on Channel Cat and accordibng to him the Sunfish we caught were a heck of a lot bigger then they grow in Northern Wisconsin. Sadly, he is the first person, aside from my kids and relatives, that have ever been in a boat I owned since the 1970’s.
Anyway, hope things continue to progress in a positive way and ditto on my end.