I’ve dealt with a lot of stuff in my life, and thought I had a pretty good sense of control. Well, control really isn’t the best word, but I’m so numb right now I can’t really compose what I want to say. Nothing has prepared me for what I’m working through in my family. I’ve always been the over the top analytical thinking person and making sound decisions based on what i know to be fact.
Now I’m struggling through things I don’t fully understand or have any control over. Relinquishing control to other is very tough for me and causing a huge amount of stress and anxiety.
Over the last year, I have gotten so many PMs asking me why I haven’t posted many reports or why some of the “tones” of my responses on here aren’t like my normal self. From a bunch of guys and a few women that don’t know me from Jack S#!^. I’m not ready or want to go into a public place and state any details of the circumstances in my family. Its not denial, just not a time or place for it yet.
But I just have to say THANK YOU to so many that have taken a concern in my life. You have no idea what that has meant and more importantly how much that helped.
Now, more than ever, I’m on the outside looking in trying to find solutions to a problem that I can’t personally fix. The phone calls and PMs have been a pillar of strength that I appreciate so much. I’m amazed in the lowest times that looking at my phone and seeing a missed call, email, or PMs here have really picked me up and keep me looking forward.
The friends I have made here are incredible including the so many acquaintances. In a time of need, you all are there for me. I can’t thank you enough. Please, those that I have talked to, I ask you to please keep things confidential. Jeff, (you know which one) thanks for sharing so much information yesterday. You were spot on on handling the situation and it made things go leaps and bounds forward. The days ahead are scary and we have hope. Thank you for being there for me
February 2, 2014 at 6:31 am
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